Malin Andersson has opened up about her battle with drink and drug abuse, after her boyfriend left her following the birth of their daughter.
The former Love Island star, 31, welcomed her daughter, Xaya, in January 2022 with her boyfriend Jared.
However, just four weeks later, she was left ‘blindsided’ and ‘distraught’ after Jared decided to leave her.
Malin revealed that she struggled with co-parenting and the loneliness she felt caused her to spiral into ‘negative behaviour’ to cope, including binge drinking and taking drugs.
Speaking to The Sun, she recalled: ‘For the first year of Xaya’s life, I was a mess. One minute you’re a mum, the next you’re alone on the sofa.’
Malin Andersson has opened up about her battle with drink and drug abuse, after her boyfriend left her following the birth of their daughter
The Love Island star, 31, welcomed her daughter, Xaya, in January 2022 with her boyfriend Jared, but just four weeks later, she was left ‘blindsided’ and ‘distraught’ after he left her
Malin revealed that she struggled with co-parenting and the loneliness she felt caused her to spiral into ‘negative behaviour’ to cope, including binge drinking and taking drugs
She admitted that she would have screaming matches with Jared and her jealousy would cause her to mess around with his days to have Xaya, exacerbating to a point where she ‘couldn’t bear to set eyes on him’.
Malin went on: ‘I couldn’t handle it and I missed her so much. I was incredibly lonely and that manifested itself in a lot of negative behaviour. I bought an eight grand hot tub and would sit in it getting drunk, looking at the stars and crying.’
‘On other occasions when Xaya wasn’t with me, I’d go out boozing with friends. I was binge-drinking and taking drugs in a bid to quash all the negative feelings.
‘Even when I was with my daughter, I was angry at my ex for putting me in this situation, and full of grief that we weren’t the perfect family I’d always dreamed of.’
Malin admitted she was ‘out-of-control’ and full of rage, before finally checking herself into a £12,000 rehab clinic.
She signed up for a three-week programme, which she credits for ‘helping me get my head straight’, while doing yoga has ‘helped to centre’ her, meaning she now has a better relationship with alcohol and co-parenting.
She explained she had decided to open up about her experiences to help others going through the same thing.
It comes after Malin took to her Instagram on Tuesday to share a throwback selfie from her first day at the recovery programme.
Malin admitted she was ‘out-of-control’ and full of rage, before finally checking herself into a £12,000 rehab clinic for a three-week programme, that ‘helped me get my head straight’
It comes after Malin took to her Instagram on Tuesday to share a throwback selfie from her first day at the recovery programme
In the lengthy caption, she admitted her ‘heart aches’ looking at the photo, showing her after she had ‘hit rock bottom’
In the lengthy caption, she admitted her ‘heart aches’ looking at the photo, showing her after she had ‘hit rock bottom’.
Her battle with booze and drugs came following a series of personal tragedies, with the reality star tragically losing her baby daughter Consy in January 2019, at just four and a half weeks old.
Only weeks before, Malin’s mother Consy-Gloria also passed away following a battle with cancer, while her father also died from cancer when she was a child.
Malin has also battled eating disorders, lost friends to suicide and survived domestic abuse.
In her Instagram post, she admitted ‘alcohol was the friend that kept the pain away’ but she didn’t realise she was in ‘denial’ over her alcohol and drug problem.
After hitting a really ‘low’ point Malin became ‘scared she would kill herself’ following drinking and mixing if she didn’t receive help.
She wrote: ‘Rehab Day 1. Rock bottom in a photo. Makes my heart ache seeing her. Felt nervous posting this but it’s the truth – and realisation that maybe it can help someone else.
‘I’ve been round and round on an alcohol merry go round for a long time. It was my secret elixir to domestic abuse, rape, grief and eating disorders.
Her battle with booze and drugs came following a series of personal tragedies, with the reality star tragically losing her baby daughter Consy in January 2019, at just four and a half weeks old (pictured)
Only weeks before, Malin’s mother Consy-Gloria (pictured) also passed away following a battle with cancer , while her father also died from cancer when she was a child
‘It was my friend that kept my pain at bay.. for the time. But what I didn’t realise was that I was in denial of being on the merry-go round.
‘Round and round in vicious cycles.. it started with, ‘I’m just having one drink’ and ending in a binge.. to be repeated. Why wasn’t I aware of the pattern I was in? Maybe I was.
‘Maybe I didn’t want to break free because I knew what would come.. truth. The truth of needing to heal. Heal the empty hole that was just getting bigger with alcohol.
‘It always takes a rock bottom. I was scared I’d eventually kill myself the day after drinking and mixing. I couldn’t live like that anymore – to feel so low – I kept creating more pain and prolonging all the wounds from healing naturally.’
The ITV2 star told fans that everything will be ‘ok’ as she is proof you can make it out the other side because she is ‘still standing’ and ‘evolved through the pain’.
She continued: ‘You can get off the merry-go-round at any given moment, you choose. You hold the power to welcome bliss and abundance into your life.
‘Alcohol steals you from yourself.. it pulls you into the deep end so you’re struggling but your heads still above the water so you think you’re ok. You’re not.
‘You can live a state of bliss with clarity in your head, and trauma surfacing to be taken a look at.
The ITV2 star told fans that everything will be ‘ok’ as she is proof you can make it out the other side because she is ‘still standing’ and ‘evolved through the pain’
‘You’ll start to level out both parts of your brain and unite your subconscious and conscious in harmony to reframe your belief system. You can’t do that with alcohol. It keeps you foggy.
‘True happiness comes when we become aware of what’s really not working for our souls anymore.
‘You need to take a hard look at EVERY shadow aspect of your being to be able to wake up and not NEED ANYTHING to alter your state of mind or to attach anything or anyone.
‘Our deepest authentic self wants us to return home to our true selves. Free from attachment to anything that isn’t good for us.
‘You’ll be okay. It’s always okay in the end. I’m still standing and I’m here now to show you all that you CAN EVOLVE THROUGH PAIN.’
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