Chynna Phillips has laid bare the horrifying sexual assault that she endured as a teen – claiming she was raped by a man who then ‘drugged’ her and ‘held her hostage’ for days.
The former musician, 56, broke down in tears as she spoke out about the incident in a recently resurfaced video that was originally shared to her faith-based YouTube channel back in 2020, as well as the devastating ‘stain’ that it left on her life.
In it, the born-again Christian – who has been extremely open about her past battle with substance abuse – claimed that the alleged abuse occurred on her 18th birthday.
The mother-of-three explained that she started the night off partying alongside her closest friends in Los Angeles – but what she thought would be a fun-filled celebration ultimately ended in devastation after she separated from her pals to try to buy some cocaine, and was ‘raped’ by the drug dealer.
Chynna Phillips has laid bare the horrifying sexual assault that she endured as a teen – claiming she was raped by a man who then ‘drugged’ her and ‘held her hostage’ for days
The former musician, 56, broke down in tears as she spoke out about the incident in a recently resurfaced video that was originally shared to her faith-based YouTube channel back in 2020
In it, the born-again Christian (seen with her mom in 1987, at age 19) claimed that the alleged abuse occurred on her 18th birthday after she went to visit a male friend to try to buy cocaine
Chynna admitted in the video that she drank an immense amount of ‘straight vodka’ during the birthday bash, before she headed to a male friend’s house to try to buy drugs.
‘It’s really shameful and embarrassing to admit, but I really wanted to do cocaine that night. I was determined to get my hands on some cocaine,’ she told her viewers.
The star did not share the man’s real name for privacy reasons, but used the fake moniker Doug throughout the video.
Upon arriving at Doug’s house, she explained that he told her that she ‘didn’t look well and needed to lay down.’
Chynna said she agreed that she ‘didn’t feel well’ and ‘passed out’ in his bed – but awoke some time later to Doug getting on top of her.
‘Suddenly the door swung open and Doug walked in. I opened my eyes and all I could see was that he was taking his belt off and he was pulling his pants down,’ she continued.
‘I was confused, I didn’t know what was happening and I couldn’t speak. I was so drunk that I could not speak.
‘Doug proceeded to rape me, and I could not get a word out. I kept saying in my mind, “Chynna, tell him to get off of you,” but nothing was coming out of my mouth.
She said she passed out at the man, who she referred to as Doug’s home but awoke to find him ‘taking his belt off and pulling his pants down.’ She shared: ‘Doug proceeded to rape me’
Chynna previously revealed that she turned to drugs and alcohol as a teen to ‘put a bandage on her emotions’ after being ‘abandoned’ by her addict father John Phillips (seen in 1991)
‘So I just waited for it to be over. Then he put his pants back up and put the blankets back over me and I just passed out again.’
Chynna said that when she woke up the next morning, Doug brought her breakfast, and that she now believes he put drugs in the meal.
‘I felt drugged… I just felt really out of it that whole day,’ she explained. ‘I think that Doug had been drugging me.’
She said she spent the entire weekend at his house, and was ‘out of it’ the whole time.
‘I felt like I had been held hostage there that whole weekend. I don’t even know how I got home,’ she recalled.
‘I just remember putting on my pajamas [after I got home], getting under my covers in my bedroom, and crying and crying and crying.’
Chynna said she didn’t talk to anyone about what had happened because at the time, she felt ‘stupid, dumb, and foolish’ for allowing herself to be in that situation – but looking back now, she knows she was ‘taken advantage of.’
She described the incident as a ‘blemish’ and ‘stain’ on her life, and admitted that she was still having a hard time letting go of what had happened.
‘We are seen without stain of blemish in God’s eyes, but that doesn’t mean that sometimes I don’t feel stained, you know?’ she said as she started to break down in tears.
‘I definitely still feel stained in many ways. Those things that God has removed from us, it’s like we want to carry them around for some reason.
‘But I don’t want to carry this around anymore. It’s gone, it’s forgotten. I’m just trying to remind myself of that.
‘I forgive myself today. God has already forgiven me but I forgive myself.’
‘My relationship – or lack thereof – with my dad, really impacted me as a child. I had a lot of abandonment issues,’ she previously said. She’s seen as a kid with her mom
Chynna got sober at age 19. She went on to marry actor Billy Baldwin in 1995, and together, they welcomed three children. She and Billy are seen in 2004
Chynna, who is the daughter of Mamas & the Papas band members John and Michelle Phillips, previously revealed that she turned to drugs and alcohol as a teen to ‘put a bandage on her emotions’ after being ‘abandoned’ by her addict father at a young age.
‘My relationship – or lack thereof – with my dad, really impacted me as a child. I had a lot of abandonment issues, and I just didn’t understand why I couldn’t have a father around like some of my other friends did,’ she told TV Guide in 2017.
‘At the time, everyone was keeping me from the big secret: that my dad had this drug addiction.
‘I felt so hurt and scarred on the inside, that I ended up turning to drugs and alcohol as a teenager, to put a bandage on my emotions. I didn’t know how to deal and that was just me trying to cope.’
Chynna got sober at age 19. She went on to marry actor Billy Baldwin in 1995, and together, they welcomed three children.
In 2022, the star also spoke in detail about how her father’s ‘horrible, horrible addiction to drugs and alcohol’ marred her childhood in a YouTube video.
She said her dad was ‘obviously very troubled and tortured,’ and ‘did some things’ and she ‘knows he’s not proud of.’
Chynna’s half-sister Mackenzie, who is the daughter of John and his first wife, Susan Adams, claimed in her 2009 memoir, High On Arrival, that her father had raped her when she was just 19 years old – before engaging in an incestuous relationship that lasted nearly 10 years.
‘My relationship with my father was so complicated and so tragic, I just wish things could have been a whole lot different, but they weren’t,’ Chynna said.
‘My dad was an incredible person, he was a really, really special human being, [but] he was obviously very troubled and tortured.
‘He had a horrible, horrible addiction to drugs and alcohol, and did some things that I’m not proud of and I know he’s not proud of to say the least.
‘But I have to tell you that he held a very special place in my heart.’