Billie Eilish admitted she has experienced ‘dark times’ while on tour.
The singer, 22 — who recently revealed who she was voting for in the 2024 U.S. presidential election — got candid with Vogue about her on stage struggles and finding life on the road ‘kind of unpleasant.’
On Tuesday, she explained that she viewed her negative emotions as a ‘temporary’ stage in her life. She has since learned to embrace playing live and wants to ‘enjoy’ it.
Eilish told the outlet: ‘I’ve had some really dark times on tour. For a long time I was kind of living like it was temporary. Like, yeah, I’m touring for now and it’s kind of unpleasant, and whatever. It’ll be over.
‘And the truth is, it’s the rest of my life,’ the What Was I Made For hitmaker added.
Billie Eilish admitted she has experienced ‘dark times’ while on tour; seen in Hollywood in March
Billie also revealed to fans that she felt ‘lonely,’ admitting her connection with music had changed over time.
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‘I didn’t realize that I could make touring enjoyable. I just was very lonely for many years, and I’m not interested in that anymore. I want to enjoy the show as well as my days,’ she said.
Lately, the Birds of a Feather singer has been enjoying playing music just for fun, rather than because of her work.
She added: ‘I’m a musician and you’d think I would’ve done that. But things blew up for me at an age when I would’ve been jamming with buddies. And because it was my career, I was not interested.
‘So for the first time ever, I’m jamming, and it’s amazing. It’s so nice to not have pressure of like, Is this going to be the next single? It’s like, No, we’re just here. And it’s just right in the moment.’
Billie is currently touring her third studio album, Hit Me Hard and Soft, which marks her first concert tour without brother Finneas O’Connell playing guitar and without their parents on the road with her.
Her family joked that embarking on her solo tour stands as her ‘college’ days.
The singer’s mother, Maggie Baird, said: ‘It’s sort of our ‘going off to college year,’ I guess.’
Finneas added: ‘You want your family to come visit often, you don’t want your family to, like, be the dean of the college, or in your dorm room…
‘There were many years where I sort of felt like I would never miss a show because, you know, Billie was 16 or 17 and I really had this feeling of needing to be there for every minute, and the truth is, over the last few years of touring she’s really become an adult.’
She got candid with Vogue on Tuesday about her on stage struggles and finding life on the road ‘kind of unpleasant’; seen in Quebec in September
She explained that she viewed her negative emotions as a ‘temporary’ stage in her life; seen in Chile in March
Lately, the Birds of a Feather singer has been enjoying playing music just for fun, rather than because of her work; seen in Brazil in March
Her current tour marks her first without brother Finneas O’Connell playing guitar and without their parents on the road with her; Finneas, Billie and Maggie seen in Hollywood in 2022
Hit Me Hard and Soft was released on May 17 and yielded viral hits Lunch, Birds of a Feather, Wildflower and L’amour De Ma Vie.
She kicked off her 81-date tour on September 29 in Québec City, Canada and is slated to wrap her run on July 27, 2025 in Dublin, Ireland.
Her previous tours include the Don’t Smile at Me Tour, When We All Fall Asleep Tour, and Happier Than Ever, The World Tour.